I unwittingly got addicted to the drug fentanyl and need to go to a medical drug detox rehab center and need help to pay for the hospital stay and medical procedure. Almost two years ago, my father died from pancreatic cancer, so I moved in with my mother to help take care of her. I had difficulty sleeping, so I asked my online telehealth doctor/shrink for some type of sleeping pills like Ambien or some such to help me sleep and was told āwe donāt do that here – only ADHD medsā. I told a co-worker about that, and he told me not to worry, he could get them for me. I reluctantly agreed, bought some from him, and they worked great! Well, after taking them to help me sleep for almost two years, my work surprised us all with a drug test, which I failed and lost my job. The test results revealed me to have traces of heroin, fentanyl, and xylazine in my system! I couldnāt believe it! I had looked the pills up online, and they looked just like Ambien pills are supposed to look like! They apparently worked so well because xylazine is a horse tranquilizer! So, I immediately stopped taking those pills! When I did, I got horribly violently sick! I went to a doctor and he gave me Suboxone pills to take to help with the withdrawal symptoms, but they didnāt help me at all! They didnāt work for me. I tried them twice, and each time I stayed sick. So, instead of giving up, I started going to a methadone clinic. Guess what? Itās not working yet, either! I am dose methadone in the morning, and by early evening, I start getting sick! Itās horrible beyond belief and words to describe it!
Though I truly donāt believe that this will work and no one will help me, I feel I must try and I hope that Iām wrong because Iām out of options and I canāt take this life like this much more. Every time I get sick, I think about how it would be better if I werenāt alive anymore, but I have to take care of my mother, and I canāt leave her like that. Sheās a great woman, a very good mother, and I love her very much. Sheās very worried about me. I told her about my addiction as soon as I learned about it and she knows Iām trying to get help.
I found a clinic in Florida that has a procedure to medically detox and reset your brain to a pre-addiction state, but it costs $20,500 plus I need round trip airfare for me and my mom, a weeks hotel stay, rental car, and to board my dog while weāre gone.
I donāt want to die, and I donāt want to live like this anymore. I have had to take the fentanyl pills when I get sick. Iām hoping the methadone starts to work so I no longer have to, but as of right now, itās not. I would really appreciate any help any of you can give to help me reach my goal of getting that procedure done. I want my life back. Iām a good man, and my mom needs me. Thank you for at least taking the time to read this, and thank you so very much if you were able to help at all. Donāt help if you canāt afford to, though, okay? But if you can and do, thank you.